It happened yet again , actually it happens daily . As i returned from my hospital in the afternoon , i saw a begger child coming towards my car and trying to swipe the windscreen. As he was approaching , same old question arose , to give or not to give . And as i looked towards him , i thought what difference does it make if i give him ,as afterall he is standing in the heat and atleast trying to do some work even though it is just another way of begging . And as soon as i gave him i started feeling guilty that people like me are responsible  for encouraging this buisness . But i just cannot see a child begging in front of me . what is his fault ? and what am i doing to alleviate him from this position ,by turning a blind eye to him . I feel i am living an incomplete life , i want to do something for what i feel but cannot[or not able to], i even dont know on what side to stand - to give or not to give . I  envy  those who dont have such confusions in life like me  and those who can do their work without much getting disturbed by the surroundings. They say every child is special -what about these childrens . Why am i not able to find solution to my confusion ??  Just why can't i break from my routine and do something about these childrens ?   why can't i become practical and not let myself get disturbed - although my staff , servants and colleagues see me as quite strict , arrogant and practical person; so why am i having a double personality ?